Food...

Yes, food. It is consuming our life right now. For the first time in a long time it has been in a positive way. We are on Day 5 of our Ultimate Reset  and it is all about food. Yes, there are supplements that you have to take and time them when you take them. But the focus is food. Healthy choices. Healthy meals. Thinking outside the box of what we have been eating.

It takes a lot of preparation and dedication....maybe even more so then what I originally thought. But for the most part the food has not been that bad....with the exception of one Failed meal that I care to never revisit again.

I was extremely nervous about the withdraw symptoms. I was expecting headaches. I did encounter headaches, but the worst has been a radiating hip joint and back pain. I find it annoying but at the same time fascinating that eliminating food from my diet has caused this pain of withdraw.

It has made me think about what I have been eating, when I have been eating and why I have been eating. It has been a reality check of sorts. Yes, there are things I definitely miss right now, and I am not sure I will never revisit those things again, but it will be in moderation. Coffee and cheese are what I am missing and craving most. Strange the things that you thought your would miss turn out to be completely different.

So I am continuing on this journey for at least 16 more days. I do not know what will happen when it is over. I do not want to make false promises to myself, but right now I feel like I am setting myself up for better food choices when this journey ends. I do not foresee myself becoming a full time vegan, but I do see myself incorporating some of the vegan life into our life.  It is an experience and challenge that I have decided to pursue for at least 16 more days....and who knows how much longer, that will be determined later. Right now I can just focus on Day 5.

21 days...

Tomorrow is the day. The D day of this 21 day adventure that we are going to start. What are we doing? Well, we have decided to do the Ultimate Reset by BeachBody Here are the details of it. 

What is the Beachbody Ultimate Reset?

The Ultimate Reset is a complete, 3-phase daily program that provides you with everything you need to Reclaim your body's natural balance, Release the harmful materials you may be storing within you, and Restore your system to its maximum health.

Clean eating for 21 days. Vegetarian and Vegan lifestyle after week 1. Just to sum up the program. 

It will be HARD. I am NERVOUS. I KNOW we NEED this. I KNOW we CAN do it. BUT....right now my fears of the unknown are scaring me. Not so much the food. Not so much the time and supplements, but the withdraw symptoms people describe that include headaches and body aches.  No processed food, caffeine, gum are allowed....which might sum up my current diet. Yes, that is a bad thing. Yes that is one reason I need to do it. 

So, despite my fears. Despite my overshadowing willingness to say forget it before I even start. I am pushing them aside. I will do this. I will do it for me. I will do it to help achieve my goals I have set for myself. 

So tomorrow begins the new journey....

ps i do not know why it is in white and i cannot figure out how to fix it. so like this it will stay. :(

Live. Let go. Breathe.

Live. Let go. Breathe.

Seems simple, huh? Not always. When we decided to have kids, I told myself I would live in the moment with them. I would live through their eyes and not wish the time away for their first step, first word, etc. As they have grown, I have lost sight of this promise to myself. Toddler years have brought new challenges, busier schedules, two boys that are so different & different in age....the list could go on and on.

Over the last few months especially I have found myself wishing for this phase or that phase to end and grow out of it. I have not celebrated or enjoyed the moments that make up this time, but instead maybe have felt myself be "beat" down by it.

So a goal this year is to...

 Live in the moment. Go back to living through their eyes. Trying to see the world the way they see it. See the challenges from their perspective. See the joy and excitement from the little things that they love.

Let Go. Let go of the things that tend to wear and beat me down as a Mom. In the BIG picture is really that big of a deal. So what if they say Mommy 500 times a day. One day when it is just D & I, I might wish for the 500 times to hear Mommy from a little boy. Let go of the things that people think my kids should or should not be doing.

Breathe. Just breathe in and enjoy life. Breathe to relax. Count to 10 and breathe when life and the daily routine becomes overwhelming. Teach my kids to breathe because we are the example for them.

In the big picture, we as a family are very fortunate. We have a home. We have food on the table each night. We have a strong love for one another. We have an amazing support system. We have our Health. So it is time to refocus and to regroup. It is time to Live. Let go. Breathe.

Here we go....

A new year. A new blog. A new adventure.

I have blogged before, and I did religiously for quite some time. It was a place for information, a place for remembering, a place of grief. I still have that blog but I cannot bring myself to add to it. I need a clean slate and a new place to begin my journey back into blogging.

So here it is. {The D Chronicles} will be my new place on the web. My new place to vent. My new place to create memories. My new place to make memories. I will not and have not forgotten all my writings on my previous blog, but it reminds me of too much of why I began that blog and that was to inform others about my Mom's cancer journey and my journey with her.

So here is to 2013.....a year of new beginnings and back to blogging.